Chapter 22: Vihan

# Chapter 22: Vihan

## Shunya

Day 80. Eleven weeks and two days.

A mogra blooms in Kolhapur.

Not the mogra I planted in the school garden in Pune, that mogra is 230 kilometres north, in a garden I cannot water, in a school I cannot visit, sprouting toward a sun that does not know its gardener is gone. This mogra is different. This mogra is on aaji's balcony, in the two-room house in Rajarampuri where I grew up, where the plant has lived for longer than I have been alive, where aaji has tended it with the same devotion that she tends everything, her grandchild, her kitchen, her faith, her stubborn refusal to let things die.

The plant survived the virus. Of course it did. The virus killed people, not mogra. The plant continued to grow, to bud, to bloom, indifferent to the catastrophe of the species that planted it. And now, in late April, the buds are opening; small, white, star-shaped, releasing the scent that Maitreyi's grandmother called the love that stays.

I stand on the balcony and breathe it in. The scent fills my lungs, travels through my blood, reaches every cell. It smells like Aai. It smells like the flat in Aundh, where three white flowers bloomed while the world was dying. It smells like the school garden, where I planted seeds because I am my mother's son. It smells like grief and memory and the specific, piercing beauty of things that persist.

Behind me, inside the house, aaji is making chai. I can hear the sounds: the match striking, the gas ring hissing, the milk pouring, the spoon clinking against the glass. The sounds are the same as they were a year ago, five years ago, ten years ago. The sounds have not changed. The world has changed, but the sounds of aaji making chai in her kitchen have not changed, and this constancy, this stubborn, beautiful, illogical constancy, is the thing that holds me together.

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The days in Kolhapur have settled into a rhythm.

I wake at five. The house is small — two rooms, a kitchen, a bathroom, a balcony, and it creaks in the morning the way old houses do, the concrete and wood expanding in the first heat of the day, the sounds as familiar as my own breathing. Aaji is already awake — she sleeps poorly, her body too old and too tired and too full of the memories that nighttime amplifies.

Chai. The morning chai is a ritual that aaji performs with the seriousness of a puja. The milk must be boiled first, then cooled slightly, then added to the tea. The tea must be Wagh Bakri, nothing else will do. The sugar must be measured precisely, one and a half spoons, because two is too sweet and one is too bitter, and the precision of one and a half is the precision of a woman who has been calibrating this exact ratio for sixty years.

After chai, I walk to Rajaram College. The walk takes twelve minutes, through the lanes of Rajarampuri, past the Mahalaxmi Temple (where morning aarti still happens, the bells ringing, the camphor smoke rising, the priests performing the rituals for an audience of twelve instead of twelve hundred), past the Rankala Lake (still, green, the boatmen's boats tied to the dock with no boatmen to row them), and into the campus.

At the college, I have a role. Several roles, actually, because in a community of three hundred survivors, everyone does several things.

I am on the garden team. The college campus has a large garden — established before the virus, expanded since, and I work it every morning with a crew of eight. We grow tomatoes, spinach, methi, coriander, bottle gourd, ridge gourd, onions, and potatoes. The potatoes are my specialty — I am, apparently, the only sixteen-year-old in Kolhapur who knows how to plant potatoes, a skill set that I acquired by accident and that has become, in the post-virus economy, more valuable than any engineering degree.

I am on the radio team. Every evening, from six to eight PM, I sit in the communications room (a former professor's office, now housing the transmitter that Shlok built from parts scavenged from the electrical engineering lab) and broadcast. The broadcast is simple: who we are, where we are, what we have, an invitation to come. The broadcast that drew me 230 kilometres from Pune. The broadcast that, as of last week, has drawn forty-seven more people from towns and villages across Western Maharashtra.

And I am on the liaison team. Because I walked from Pune, because I have connections in the Kothrud shelter and the Shivajinagar relief camp, I am the person who communicates with Pune. The radio link — established on the frequency Gaurav gave me, 1125 kHz AM, connects us to the shelter. Every three days, I broadcast, and Gaurav responds, and we exchange information: population numbers, food stocks, medical supplies, weather, threats. The information is dry, factual, the language of logistics. But underneath the logistics, in the pauses between the numbers, in the way Gaurav says "everyone is well" and the way I say "received, thank you," there is something else — the connection, the acknowledgement, the unspoken message that says we are here, you are there, we have not forgotten each other.

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Shlok is different.

That boy I left in Kolhapur eight months ago — the boy who called me Vee-gun and sent voice notes full of gossip and BGMI strategies, is still there, underneath. But the virus has added layers. He is quieter. He listens more than he talks. His humour, which was once constant, surfaces in bursts — sharp, dark, the humour of someone who has seen things that are not funny and has decided to laugh at them anyway because the alternative is unacceptable.

He lost his parents. Both of them. His brother Prasad survived. the engineering student, now part of the college's technical team, the one who helped Shlok build the transmitter. But his parents, his mother, who made the best poha in Rajarampuri, and his father, who drove a KSRTC bus and knew every pothole on every road in Western Maharashtra, are gone.

We do not talk about it directly. We talk around it, the way Maharashtrian men have always talked about grief, circling it, approaching it obliquely, touching it with glancing references and half-sentences and the specific Marathi construction of what to do, it happened (kaay karaycha, jhaalaa) that is simultaneously a statement of acceptance and a refusal to accept.

We play cricket. Every evening, in the college grounds, with a tennis ball and a bat that Shlok found in the sports room. Omi bowls — his leg breaks are as deceptive as ever, the ball dipping and turning off the rough pitch. Tejas keeps wicket — crouching behind the makeshift stumps (three sticks driven into the ground), his gloves (gardening gloves, not cricket gloves) ready for the edge. I bat. Shlok fields at slip, his hands quick, his reflexes sharp, his commentary a running stream of Marathi sledging that is simultaneously insulting and affectionate.

The cricket is not exercise. The cricket is not recreation. The cricket is a language. It is the language that four boys from Kolhapur speak when they cannot speak about the things that matter. The dead parents, the empty houses, the world that ended while they were playing BGMI and eating batata vada and arguing about whether Kohli is better than Sachin (he is not, and the argument is settled, and anyone who disagrees can bowl to me and watch the ball go over the college library).

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Day 85. Twelve weeks.

I receive a message on the radio. Not from Gaurav. From Tanvi.

Her voice, clipped, precise, carrying the specific frequency of a person who does not waste words, comes through the speaker at 7:14 PM, during my evening broadcast shift.

"Vihan. This is Tanvi. I am at the Kothrud shelter. Everyone is well. The army presence is stable. Salim's group has been fully integrated into the relief camp. No new threats." A pause. "Your garden at the school is still growing. I went this morning. The potatoes are ready for harvest. The onions are large. The tomatoes are red."

That pause.

"The mogra has bloomed. Three flowers. White. I did not pick them."

A longer pause.

"I miss the school. I miss the kitchen. I miss the upma that you always burned." Another pause, and when her voice comes back, it carries something that I have rarely heard in it. Warmth, unguarded, the warmth of a person who has removed her armour for a moment. "I am glad you made it. Send my regards to Kolhapur. Over."

I sit in the communications room. The transmitter hums. The static crackles. Outside the window, the Kolhapur evening is settling in, the temperature dropping from the April high, the shadows lengthening, the sounds of the college campus fading as people move toward the canteen for dinner.

Three mogra flowers. White. She did not pick them.

I press the transmit button. "Tanvi. This is Vihan. Received. Everyone is well here. Kolhapur has three hundred survivors and growing. The army is present. Food is stable. The garden here is productive." I pause. "Thank you for watering the garden. The mogra — keep them. Let them bloom. They are for Aai."

That pause.

"I miss the school too. I miss the khichdi. I even miss your combat training." A pause. "Come to Kolhapur. Bring everyone. There is space. There is food. There is misal that will make you cry."

I release the transmit button. Wait. The static hisses.

Then her voice, faint, distant, carrying 230 kilometres of electromagnetic wave across the Sahyadri mountains: "I will consider it. Over and out."

I smile. In Tanvi's vocabulary, I will consider it is a yes.

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Day 90. Thirteen weeks. Three months.

I am sitting on the Rankala Lake embankment, drawing.

Not charcoal this time. Pencil. A soft 2B pencil that Shlok found in the art department, along with a sketchbook, a proper sketchbook, not the back of a school register, and the quality of the paper, the tooth of it, the way the graphite lays down in smooth, controlled gradations, is a luxury that I had forgotten existed.

I am drawing the lake. The still water, the reflected sky, the stone embankment, the mandapam at the far end where fishermen used to sit and where survivors now sit, dangling their feet, watching the sunset. I am drawing the boats. Tied to the dock, bobbing gently, their paint faded, their names (Jai Bhavani, Mahalaxmi, Kolhapur Queen) still visible on the bows.

I draw the figures on the embankment. A man and a woman, sitting together, their postures relaxed. Two children, running along the waterline, their shapes blurred with movement. An old woman, aaji-shaped, small, seated on a bench, a steel glass of chai in her hand.

I draw and I think about numbers.

Three months ago, there were seven million people in Pune and seven lakh in Kolhapur. Now there are maybe thirty thousand in Pune and three hundred in Kolhapur's college community, with more arriving weekly. The numbers are brutal, a ninety-plus percent reduction, the largest die-off in human history, a catastrophe that makes every previous pandemic look like a dress rehearsal.

But the numbers are also not the whole story. Because within those numbers — within the survivors, the immune, the ones who were left standing when the virus finished its work — there are gardens. There are radios. There are relief camps and community halls and evening cricket and misal pav and chai made with one and a half spoons of sugar. There are flags on lamp posts and teachers in classrooms and temple bells ringing for audiences of twelve. There are paintings on curtain partitions and charcoal drawings on classroom walls and mogra plants blooming on balconies.

There are people.

People who do what people have always done in the wake of catastrophe: they build. They plant. They cook. They argue about rations and governance and whether Kohli is better than Sachin. They play cricket with tennis balls. They broadcast on AM radio. They walk 230 kilometres through the ghats to find their best friend. They hold their grandmother's hand and tell her that they are here, that they are staying, that the line has not been severed.

That word shunya means zero in Sanskrit. Aaji told me this when I was six, sitting on her lap, learning to count. Shunya is not nothing, she said. Shunya is the space before the first number. The silence before the first sound. The darkness before the first light. Shunya is where everything begins.

Three months ago, the world went to zero. The population crashed. The power went out. The networks went dark. The hospitals overflowed. The schools emptied. The streets fell silent.

Zero.

But zero is not nothing. Zero is the space before the first number. And the first number, the number one, the smallest, the simplest, the first mark that a human makes on the emptiness, is a person. A single person, standing in the rubble, choosing to survive.

I was that person. On Day 1, in the flat in Aundh, with Baba coughing and Aai crying and the world ending outside the window, I was a zero. A boy with nothing; no plan, no skills, no weapons, no community, no hope.

Now I am, what? A number. A small number, embedded in a larger number, part of a sequence that is still being written. A sixteen-year-old boy who can grow potatoes and draw charcoal portraits and operate a radio transmitter and walk 230 kilometres and make khichdi that is only slightly terrible.

A boy who has lost everything and built something.

A boy who started at zero and counted to one.

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Sun sets over Rankala Lake. The water turns gold, then orange, then pink, then the deep, luminous purple that Kolhapur sunsets specialise in — the colour of the sky when the light passes through the dust of the Deccan plateau and the moisture of the Arabian Sea and the specific alchemy of latitude and atmosphere that makes this city, this lake, this moment, look like a painting that no artist could improve.

I close the sketchbook. Stand. Stretch. My body aches. The good ache of a day spent working in the garden, carrying water, broadcasting on the radio. The ache of use. The ache of being alive and using the aliveness for something.

I walk back toward Rajarampuri. The lanes are familiar. the same lanes I walked as a child, heading home from school, from cricket, from the batata vada stall, my school bag on my back, my mind full of the things that children's minds are full of: homework, friends, the score of the last match, the episode of the show I am watching, the argument I had with Shlok about which BGMI weapon is best.

That lanes are the same. I am not.

I reach the house. The two-room house. The balcony with the mogra. The kitchen where aaji is making dinner, tonight it is aamti-bhat, the Maharashtrian comfort meal, dal with kokum and goda masala served over hot rice, the meal that tastes like childhood and safety and the specific warmth of a grandmother's kitchen.

"Jevan tayyar aahe," she calls from inside. Dinner is ready.

I take off my shoes. I leave the sketchbook on the balcony shelf, beside the mogra plant. I touch one of the flowers. Small, white, warm from the last of the sun. The petals are soft. The scent rises to meet my fingers.

The love that stays.

I go inside. I sit at the low table where Baba sat as a boy, where his father sat before him. I eat the aamti-bhat that aaji serves with the precision of sixty years of practice. The rice in the centre of the thali, the aamti ladled alongside, the papad broken into quarters, the loncha in its small steel vati. I eat with my hands, the rice warm between my fingers, the aamti sharp and tangy and deeply, fundamentally good.

Aaji watches me eat. She does not eat much herself. She never does, the habit of a generation that fed others first and themselves last. She watches me, and in her watching I see the thing that has kept her alive through eighty-two years of history and catastrophe and loss: the refusal to let the line end. The insistence that her grandson will eat, will grow, will survive, will carry the name forward into whatever comes next.

"Aaji," I say between mouthfuls.

"Hmm?"

"Udya mala baaghet kaam aahe." Tomorrow I have work in the garden.

"Barobar. Pan aadhi chai." Fine. But chai first.

Always chai first. In aaji's world, chai precedes everything. Work, grief, joy, the apocalypse. The order of operations is immutable: chai, then the world.

I finish dinner. I wash my thali at the kitchen tap, the municipal water still runs, intermittently, the infrastructure built by the British and maintained by the Corporation holding on through sheer momentum. I dry my hands on the kitchen towel, a cotton towel, faded, embroidered with a small Om in one corner, the towel that has hung on this hook for as long as I can remember.

I go to the balcony. The stars are out. This Milky Way, visible, bright, the dead stars still shining, stretches across the Kolhapur sky.

Baba's voice: That star might already be dead. The light is still traveling, but the source is gone. You are seeing a ghost.

I am surrounded by ghosts. I carry them with me. In the Kolhapur Warriors cap on my head, in the photo in my bag, in the mangalsutra in my pocket, in the charcoal drawings rolled in my rucksack, in the compass that Hemant Kaka gave me, in the painting that Maitreyi painted, in the register that Sudhir Kaka filled, in the memory of a mother who grew mogra and a father who whistled when he was scared.

I carry them. They carry me.

A mogra blooms on the balcony. Three flowers. White. Star-shaped. Smelling of the love that stays.

I am sixteen years old. I am alive. I am home.

And tomorrow, tomorrow I will wake up, and drink chai, and walk to the college, and tend the garden, and broadcast on the radio, and play cricket with my friends, and draw in my sketchbook, and eat aamti-bhat with my grandmother, and count the stars, and carry the ghosts, and add another day to the sequence that began at zero.

Shunya.

That space before the first number.

The silence before the first sound.

The darkness before the first light.

Where everything begins.